I AM SO EXCITED TO WEAR SWEATERS AGAIN
Titan aka the Mermaid Moon
Blessed and content.
I don’t know a lot of people my age that can say that about their life. I don’t know a lot of people that could say that in general. I am in a state of complete bliss. It’s how I am that I’m able to be this way and maybe that with the turn of fate/chance (whatever you want to call it), I have many opportunities presented to me. I love my job. I enjoy going to work. I love going to school. I’ve always enjoyed going to school (that’s why I take on a lot of schooling). I love learning. Inside and outside of the classroom. It’s one to do what you love doing and second to be rewarded for it. I am in school and going to work because I am genuinely in love with it. It may take me some trouble getting out of bed in the morning because I’m just lazy, but once I get my day rolling, I want to keep continuing. I don’t want the day to end. I love going to school because I want to be more well-rounded and gain a larger understanding of the world around me. I want to meet new people and learn about their experiences and use it to grow my own. I want to experience new things to have a fulfilling life trying a bit of each, if you get my flow. I love being in the classroom setting. I love listening to people talk. It’s especially rewarding that I get good grades in my classes. I mean, I don’t want to say it’s automatic that if you learn in a class, you should be able to ace a test because people function differently. But I am fortunate to have the ability to do well on assignments for classes. All about using my better judgement, really. I’m real lucky when it comes to that, sometimes. My job is beyond amazing and I’m really so happy to have such an amazing opportunity handed to me. I didn’t even apply for the job— it’s one of those jobs that you have know someone to get the job. Luckily, my MA teacher saw potential in me and referred me to the job. She also went out of her way to make sure I got the job. She’s amazing. I work at normal people hours (note I say that because I used to work hellish 3p-12a shifts at Zara and couldn’t do anything with my day after I got off work and barely enough time to get anything done before work). A standard 9a-6p shift and a full hour lunch. Most of work I have (pretty good) food provided to my workplace by pharmaceutical companies that lecture on their products. I even get paid dinners (with- get this- free bottle service!). My job is truly amazing. I just recently got a pay raise. Wow. I was paid well before, but a pay raise? WOW. I get to have a life after I get off work, too. After work, I can enjoy a nice dinner with someone and relax for the night before heading off to bed. I go to work, do what I enjoy (which is helping people in whatever way I can, really), and I get paid well for it. I am so excited for what’s to come. My family have been extremely supportive and understanding of all the responsibilities I have acquired. I can’t forget to mention Wayland in the good things that have been happening to me so far, too. He SHOWERS me in nice things. From pretty clothes to nice meals to his time and attention, he provides it all to me. I never really have to lift a finger, pay for anything, or always ask to see him. Like I said, sometimes things are just handed to me. Of course like it not all pretty and happy things, but I choose to block the bad things out and focus on the nice things I have in front of me. Okay, I don’t exactly block it out, I review and reflect from time to time just so that I don’t repeat a mistake more than once. My school, my job, my personal life— everything just works and it make me oh so happy at just the thought of it. #IWYMI (It’s What You Make It) and I follow that every single day because a bad situation can continue to be bad if you make it that way or it can turn into something to change into a learning experience and you can move on with your day. I choose to be happy every day. At the end of the day, I think about and list the things that made me happy and I go to sleep with a warm heart and soul. I am so lucky and grateful to have all that I have. I have all this happy inside me and my goal is for it to rub off to other people so they can have some happy in their life. I don’t believe sharing my happiness means that I am losing my happiness that I have. It doesn’t mean that I take on the sadness/pain of others, I am just easing them of some weight that has kept them on the ground. I use their pain/sadness as a learning experience. More to add to my life of things I have experience. More to what makes me, me. I have my own experiences and learn bits and pieces of others. Life is good. Life is good because I made it good. Life will always be how I make it. I always want my life to be happy so I am happy every single day of my life until I move onto another world. Death on this world would only mean rebirth in another. My life on this world is short-lived. About a good 100 years? 18 of which I have used to get to this point. I plan to use the rest of my life do to only what makes me happy. Most of my happiness consisting of making other happy, too. So I leave with these final words: I wish you all find happiness— may the smallest things contribute to your happiness and if you may feel the weight of the world on your shoulders too overwhelming, I hope that you keep your chin up and continue on. Take care and have a great day! xoxo
Best combination of the two things that automatically lightens my mood
Anonymous asked: Who do you still talk to/hangout with from highschool and past jobs?
I still talk to a handful of people from high school: James, Darla, Steven W., Steven T., Gordon, Dennis, Matthew, Sean, Kian, Tony N., Tiffany, etc.
I am still in touch with my coworker from Zara: Julie! My term at Zara was short, so I was lucky I even have someone I still talk to from there. I’m really so glad me and her got so close after we hung out a few times :-)
Anonymous asked: How much do you weigh?
About 112lbs! That’s good progress for me :-)
Anonymous asked: Why don't you like the hook up culture?
I need a mental connection with someone. I can’t just hook up with someone because they feel right for the moment. I like to have things for a long term, a stable thing. Oh gosh, I sound like an old lady. I’m not looking to marry or anything like that. I just carry myself higher than to be “easy” and hook up with random people. I am only interested in something that will last for a while or, even if it’s short-lived, a learning experience. I observe others enough to try to avoid all the bad choices that turn into learning experiences. Plus, I want to avoid sharing germs as much as possible. Ever since I’ve stepped foot into the medical field, I have a higher standard for those kinds of things. I don’t want to catch anything infectious….
Karen O - The Moon Song
Don’t think about what can happen in a month. Don’t think about what can happen in a year. Just focus on the 24 hours in front of you and do what you can to get closer to where you want to be.
I think everything in life is art. What you do. How you dress. The way you love someone, and how you talk. Your smile and your personality. What you believe in, and all your dreams. The way you drink your tea. How you decorate your home. Or party. The food you make. How your writing looks like. And how you feel.
Life is art.